*WARNING* THESE VIEWS & OPINIONS ARE MINE AND MAY BE OFFENSIVE. PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY, IT IS NOT INTENDED TO ALIENATE ANYONE.*
I started this site to find out who the real me is. Funny, I'm 26 and still have no idea who I am. I have become everything I always thought I would not become. Is that not how the world works?
I also created this so I can have my small space in the world to b*tch and moan about everything around me. From the Government to society as a whole to how my beliefs fit into them.
Pixie
May 24, 2006
I’m week 30 this week… Only 9 weeks left. I’m starting to get a little freaked out. I’m worried about the pain and something going wrong. Luckily my childbirth classes start next weekend. I’m hoping they can calm me down. I mean I know the pain won’t last forever and that it’s going to come whether I’m ready for it or not but what if something goes wrong that I have no control of? The funny thing is that I’m more freaked out about the pain than I am for the rest of our lives with this baby. Our life with this baby is one we’ve been waiting for for over 3 years. I want to see his face and see his personality. I can’t wait.
Ok, now on to the details. The last Dr’s appointment my belly measured 28 – 29 inches. I gained 6 lbs. The baby’s heartbeat was fine. I’m not diabetic or anemic. I’m starting to swell in my legs and hands, and belly of course. He finally started kicking me above my belly button. Until now he has been staying real low. I’ve developed acid reflux for the first time. I think it’s from all the throwing up I have done in the last 7 months. Thanks hormones. My appointments are now every 2 weeks.
Eric & I have decided to go camping next weekend. It will be easier for us if it’s not so busy. I just hope the place is safe from fire so we can still go. We are going to Parker Canyon Lake. It’s down by Sierra Vista. I can’t wait to get pictures to show everyone.
Well, that’s all for now. Until next week.
PIXIE
May 9, 2006
It’s been a couple of weeks since the last post so lets get updated shall we?
The baby boy is doing fine. He’s more active at night when I’m trying to sleep, of course. I’m starting my third trimester, whoo-hoo! I can finally hear his heart beat with the baby thing we bought months ago. I’ll try to put a recording of it up on the site. I’m throwing up only when I wait too long to eat after I get up in the morning. I’m still acting like a freak on lithium. I’m so happy and laugh all the time. My niece says it’s weird seeing me this happy. My belly is getting tighter and tighter. I’m not used to all the weight in the front so I’m already starting to waddle. It’s getting harder to tie my shoes as well so I guess it’s to wearing my sandals. It’s funny when I’m out and people ask how far along I am. They are shocked when I tell them I have 3 months to go. Am I that huge? Don’t answer that.
I must be going through this content stage because all I want to do is sit with some music and rub my belly. Whether it be the park, the house, or the mall. It’s just weird.
Eric and I went to the park this weekend and took some pictures of me. They are in the Image Gallery. Eric gets bored just sitting there so we didn’t stay too long. You should check out Eric’s Blog, he wrote something about it. It’s cute. Eric is starting to get funny about the baby. He tells him good-night when I go to bed, he’s touching my belly just as much as I am, and he’s more affectionate than he used to be, which I love. I guess the reason this is all so cool to me is because I never thought a baby would change Eric even before he is born. This is a side of Eric I have never seen. He’s great! Great, now he’s going to have to write a funny, smart-ass comment about this so he doesn’t look like a “sensitive” person.
He’s such a punk. And I love it. 
Eric has finally got his VW bus running. He loves driving it. I’m hoping to take a weekend camping trip before the baby decides to grace us with his presence. We might be able to go memorial weekend. Maybe. After that then it will be too late in the pregnancy to go. Keep your fingers crossed.
I did the diabetes blood test yesterday. It was ok but I thought I was going to throw up the glucose stuff. The chic that drew the blood hurt me though. It was the first time out of the 3 times I’ve had blood drawn this one hurt the worst. She left a bruise and everything.
Well, I guess that’s it. I’ll write again soon.
PIXIE